Bliss and Reproach

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This is one of the Poems on Demand I did for the Memory Project and Florida Wildflower Society benefit with the FSU school of Dance.

 

 

 

 


 

Fête galante

I tour the backyard brambles in my shorts
and flip flops for the gallantry of overgrowth,

Slipshod, the azalea have opened their purses

to bees and black damsel flies.

The Blackberry vines have slipped barefoot
through the camellia tying their thorny garrotes
Around the silk necks of flowers. Such is the footstep
of beauty, dreamy eyed, steadied by boredom
and twisting. After a season, the jasmine vine is so thick
in the arms of Sweetgum bark that the two flesh
are melded to one shadow.

The dying branch gives its leaves
in summer, season to ingest, season to dismiss.

I pursue, not dressed for the ceremony.
Maître d insects object my intrusion
with curt flybys of disapproval and stings.

It’s all so fancy and hungry I think maybe
I should take a shower and come back.

I feel as though I’ve been bounced
From the discoteque of morning
Not by force but by my own self
conscious misgiving.

No. What I see brushed
in the ink of noon shadow
is a lie, but discreet like snake skin rubbed
of on the spikes of wild blackberry vine
Luxuriating in its own ignorance.

I choose to be insecure, I know it.
I stay silent at this party, the guest everyone wants
to leave.

The white camellia blossoms fall
the way my antidepressants
fill the pill bottle inside me.

I can hardly recognize myself, things are so accurate,
Resolved like a painting.

 


 

Every Speck Moves

Halfway down the pattern in the carpet
A snag in the weave grows legs to steal my eyes.

The shadowed recess in the foyer crawls
As I slip sideways through the door

The glass slips the world back in to place
And the shadows under the silver leaf giggle a bit.

In quiet moments when I’m ground to stillness,
Hitched on the engine of thought

The stray spear of grass writhes in my periphery
Sprouting to animation with an extraterrestrial will.

It’s not simple motes drifting on a pulse, loose
Kernels of debris like asteroids floating

In my contemplation. No this is the manifestation
Of the darker will wriggling to poke through

The tiny cracks that come to life when I’m not looking.

 

 


 

Divulge

Quest dreams befuddle
Me, gurgling depths
Unwinding.

Prattle and roses, muddied
Amplifiers vibrate me
In my depths.

Transferring cups from the gas
Station’s coffee drudge,
I’m stains awaiting
Revelation.

Read my dream, dressed
As dinner, neck
Tied to the bleeding
Post, stamped consumer

Grade, unveil
The passage.

 


 

December Nineteen Ten

 

On or about nude descending a tile rooftop
Human culture bought a cell phone.

On or about nineteen batteries human culture
Descended to waterfront locations.

On or about human culture made ten nudes
Of roof tile, changing batteries.

On or about the geometry of humans, nineteen
Changes battered the nude.

On or about the battered humans, nineteen changes
Descended to roof tile.

On or about geometry human tens turned nineteen
As culture took the batteries from its cell phone.

On or about the virgin batteries human culture
Descended in ripples of nude geometry.

 

 


 

 

 

Tokyo Cordrycep

Cordyceps species are able to affect the behaviour of their insect host: Ophiocordyceps unilateralis (formerly Cordyceps unilateralis) causes ants to climb a plant and attach there before they die. This ensures the parasite’s environment is at an optimal temperature and humidity, and that maximal distribution of the spores from the fruiting body that sprouts out of the dead insect is achieved.                                                                                                                                                                                               –Wikipedia

 

The fungus eats its way through me, without eyes,

its stomach grows through my stomach,

the tissue cavern held together with strings of night.

The mushroom spoors, tendrils green and bound

with starlight, seamless distance from planet to planet.

The mushroom digs deeper into the dirt of me,

tries to take root in my Tokyo, in clean bright buildings,

and layers or rooftops busheled to tile

like forest upon forest of people, grit upon street,

piles of white paint pointing around street bends,

endless block-walled streets, deeper and deeper

into the inferno of the lung, filaments colliding

with umbrellas in the rain to terminals

of kidney where the fungus extrudes upon retention

walls holding up apartment blocks, greening

under an army of children all wearing the uniform

of eyes, awed at the massive lcd screen raising

over the ten pointed intersection, bubbling

into the brain with a fuzz of neon, beating

the night with the pulse of a luminous heart.

Growth in the sovereign forest, concrete depth,

bristling city, gleaming with thrust and ooze.

Transition of consequence, this fungus grows

on a corpse, making new gloss. The mushrooms

sprout endlessly. I build this city inside me

again and again, inside wooden houses, creaking

and filthy, inside linoleum courthouses, pathetic

and consequential, in fields of gnats and essential

cut grass, blooming with bottle caps, their gentle

edges cutting my feet. The mushroom grows in me

out of this Tokyo inside me, robot city, neon subway

map city. You don’t know, but the streets

grow like a fungus inside my mind at random

in order to confuse and fend off invading armies.  

 


 

Cutlery

Through silent communications, deep codes
Of discontent measure through mashed potatoes,

stainless steel on teeth, scrapes of indulgence
And urgency transmitting at equal frequency

Such that it takes years of careful discomfort
To interpret the subtle meanings; displeasure

At the weather is as easy to endure as severing
The heads of asparagus, the haunting meeting

Of ceramic and intention worked with steady
Anger through the flesh of beasts, misery

In the flavor and atmosphere conducted through
The scrape and clink, tune of tine and teeth.

We Develop a language of cutlery, rending of the heart,
In order to hear the music of forks.

 


 

True Smile

What ocean you crossed
To be here today
On your angel’s wings?

What is the price of corn?
Stalks in perpetuity, stalks
The panther. Obese
Prey running but lethargic.

What ship carries freight
On this ocean of tears, more
Drops than fuzz in television
Static, the alone.

Kernel of corn, bobbing
Imprecisely to become
Your blood’s sugar.

Now the beach, now the claw.
Read here your own heart’s
Conspiracy. 

Don’t wonder if
This poem is real blood,
And you are dissolving

Inside yourself, currents cutting
Jagged smiles into
Deep sea rock. 

 


 

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